Hmmm
Why do ppl do the things they do is my question for today.... Hmmmm I dunno.
Been reading this book this past couple of week called the selfish gene by Richard Dawkins. It is about evolution and trying to give an insight into ppls behavior. I must actually say even though I am still in the early parts of the book, for what ppl are and how they behave the book making me even more confused. On the other hand maybe this is a just the food that over time will give me greater insight into ppl though.
When forced with a situation I do though believe that ppl real colours show. A person can be in your life in some manner for 8 years (or whateva time put in here) but when the shit really strike the fan that is when ppls colours show.
The question you should start asking yourself is do you want to be assocaited with this person. Does this person break you down or bring you up.
Unfortunately this is a question only you can answer....
The thing is though when you bring emotions into the situation that is when it gets even harder. What do you do and really I cant answer you....
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
That person
In life something sthe hardest thing to do is saying goodbye. Be it death or what eva, it is hard.
The hardest thing that one realises is more than anything it hurts. It hurts like a mother.
It hurst when that person is not around. You look at yourself and ask constantly "WHY ME". You always used to think to yourself that this person will forever be there, but lets be honest you will lose that person one day.
How does one handle it. To tell you the honest truth I do not know. It is hard being there firstly. Secondly nothing in the world makes sense any more. All your values gets thrown out of the door.
A life spent with a person is probably should probably be the best thing that this life has too offer.
Cos when you do not have that person........
The hardest thing that one realises is more than anything it hurts. It hurts like a mother.
It hurst when that person is not around. You look at yourself and ask constantly "WHY ME". You always used to think to yourself that this person will forever be there, but lets be honest you will lose that person one day.
How does one handle it. To tell you the honest truth I do not know. It is hard being there firstly. Secondly nothing in the world makes sense any more. All your values gets thrown out of the door.
A life spent with a person is probably should probably be the best thing that this life has too offer.
Cos when you do not have that person........
Thursday, December 11, 2008
haha life haha
So busy having a tough time and just did not have the energy to blog.
Ever thought that that something will never happen to you. Hmm then it happens and you ask why me.
Well at the moment im having one of those. Then when your there it seems that no-one is listening.
Anyway life is hard then shit happens.....
Ever thought that that something will never happen to you. Hmm then it happens and you ask why me.
Well at the moment im having one of those. Then when your there it seems that no-one is listening.
Anyway life is hard then shit happens.....
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
no no no - natural selection is a bitch...
Ever started a day with a fuck you attitude. A day where the hate (as someone who i work with calls it) just seems to creep at you from now where and totally swallows. Wel that is how my day started. A day where people saying the wrong word once too caused me too snap at them.
Ever been sick of life and feel like nothing can go worse. Well that is how my day has been. It suck that thinking is not heavily endorsed anymore. It is totally fucked up that thinking is not an attribute that is held in high regard.
What happended to the process of natural selection where nature sorts out who is best to stay on earth. I must admin that natural selection is as harse as it gets. e.g. a puppy has maybe no spots and the beast eats it becuase it could not camoufage itself.
People are thaught not too think anymore but too memorise what they need. this sucks and the sad truth is that those people selects the leader of the world.
"Thinking is heavily endorsed" - Copeland
"I can't believe that we would lie in our graves, wondering if we had spent our living days well" - DMB
The honest truth is that my mortality is on my mind and idea that not being here or rather die-ing because of something that is beyond my control just pisses me off.
Imagine dying because some dude was drunk and drove into you. That sucks and just upsets me. Not the dying part because you need to go but rather the not knowing how you are going to go pisses me off and the helplessness of going because of something beyond your control.
Anyway let me stop ranting and rather live life.... TO THE FULL
Ever been sick of life and feel like nothing can go worse. Well that is how my day has been. It suck that thinking is not heavily endorsed anymore. It is totally fucked up that thinking is not an attribute that is held in high regard.
What happended to the process of natural selection where nature sorts out who is best to stay on earth. I must admin that natural selection is as harse as it gets. e.g. a puppy has maybe no spots and the beast eats it becuase it could not camoufage itself.
People are thaught not too think anymore but too memorise what they need. this sucks and the sad truth is that those people selects the leader of the world.
"Thinking is heavily endorsed" - Copeland
"I can't believe that we would lie in our graves, wondering if we had spent our living days well" - DMB
The honest truth is that my mortality is on my mind and idea that not being here or rather die-ing because of something that is beyond my control just pisses me off.
Imagine dying because some dude was drunk and drove into you. That sucks and just upsets me. Not the dying part because you need to go but rather the not knowing how you are going to go pisses me off and the helplessness of going because of something beyond your control.
Anyway let me stop ranting and rather live life.... TO THE FULL
Monday, November 17, 2008
So how much is enough
Ever asked yourself how much is actually enough. I am constantly asking my self that exact same question. to be honest I dont know.
How much is enough money???
How much is enough ppl in your life??
How much is enough before giving too much??
All these questions are relevant if you are to find true happines with who you are and where you are at the moment.
I have come to the realisation that if a person is someone special you give till you cant give no more and then you give another 50 percent of nothing. Although this 50% is nothing ultimately it is better than nothing.
In everything communication is key. If you cant say how you feel the person will assume what you feel and that is the problem.
Anyway try and communicate more in everything you do and tell ppl how you feel. I mean no-one can say better how you feel than yourself. It is not like the other person knows what your thinking........
How much is enough money???
How much is enough ppl in your life??
How much is enough before giving too much??
All these questions are relevant if you are to find true happines with who you are and where you are at the moment.
I have come to the realisation that if a person is someone special you give till you cant give no more and then you give another 50 percent of nothing. Although this 50% is nothing ultimately it is better than nothing.
In everything communication is key. If you cant say how you feel the person will assume what you feel and that is the problem.
Anyway try and communicate more in everything you do and tell ppl how you feel. I mean no-one can say better how you feel than yourself. It is not like the other person knows what your thinking........
What does people need from other people??
I have been contemplating the fact recently that there are so many ppl around us that feel that no-one cares.
Does not giving a person what that person wants mean that you do not care about that person?
Look at it this way. If I wanted a lolly but but you give me a pack of sweets does that mean you do not care about me. People can still feel unhappy even if you do give them pack of sweets everyday. They can still feel ignored and worthless becuase ultimately your not giving them what they need and that is a lolly.
A lot of people give what they think is best for person B, but at the end if person B does not get what they really want or need to be in a whichever relationship whether it me wife/husband, father/daughter, mother/son, etc they do feel unloved or think that they are not cared after.
So basically question that I am raising here is have you really asked the special people in your life today what they need to be in whichever relationship, because even though you think your giving them the best in your eyes, it might not be what they need to be there.
Happy living...
Does not giving a person what that person wants mean that you do not care about that person?
Look at it this way. If I wanted a lolly but but you give me a pack of sweets does that mean you do not care about me. People can still feel unhappy even if you do give them pack of sweets everyday. They can still feel ignored and worthless becuase ultimately your not giving them what they need and that is a lolly.
A lot of people give what they think is best for person B, but at the end if person B does not get what they really want or need to be in a whichever relationship whether it me wife/husband, father/daughter, mother/son, etc they do feel unloved or think that they are not cared after.
So basically question that I am raising here is have you really asked the special people in your life today what they need to be in whichever relationship, because even though you think your giving them the best in your eyes, it might not be what they need to be there.
Happy living...
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Strumming Amsterdams: Stop This World I Want To Get Off
So it has been couple of very busy days.
Been out after my last post every nite and it has been a bit hectic on the body. For thos that do not know I sometimes play in a band, Strumming Amsterdams. We have just written a new song and to be honest I really like it.
I always believed that musc should make you think. Too much of the music these days are just about what the other person d not have and what I have like money girls or what the hell ever. I love making music and I love just listening to it.
Anyway you can have a listen to the track here on our band site: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Strumming-Amsterdams/8622478450
Song is called 'Stop this world I want to get off'
Cheers for now
Been out after my last post every nite and it has been a bit hectic on the body. For thos that do not know I sometimes play in a band, Strumming Amsterdams. We have just written a new song and to be honest I really like it.
I always believed that musc should make you think. Too much of the music these days are just about what the other person d not have and what I have like money girls or what the hell ever. I love making music and I love just listening to it.
Anyway you can have a listen to the track here on our band site: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Strumming-Amsterdams/8622478450
Song is called 'Stop this world I want to get off'
Cheers for now
Friday, November 14, 2008
My Last Web Dev Project
It is like just after 12 after having beedn up since 3 trying to get a mini site up and running. The Mens Health SA Buyers guide.
The funny thing is that the site was spit out in so far two days with tommorrow being the last day. Man I cant wait for it. Just a couple of tweaks and then moving to something else. Yippee.
It is kinda being a bit hectic now Anyway off to sleep. Cheers
The funny thing is that the site was spit out in so far two days with tommorrow being the last day. Man I cant wait for it. Just a couple of tweaks and then moving to something else. Yippee.
It is kinda being a bit hectic now Anyway off to sleep. Cheers
Thursday, November 13, 2008
My Wife's Birthday
Ahh so it is like 5 in the morning and yesterday was my wife's birthday.
I really tried to make it special for her this year and I really hope she appreciates it.
I started off the birthday just before 12am by giving her some earrings that I got her. I want the get her something special and went to the jewelry store. No this is not a copout since she likes her studs and my son for some reason keeps on trowing them away. I decided to mark her birtday with some tanzanite studs. I must say it REALLY looks good on her. (Actually now thinking she realy makes a lot of stuff look good).
During the day I wanted to get her some flowers and although this is not an excuse, the day just swallowed me in and I forgot to get her some until it was too late.
Anyway come the nite. I really wanted and decided this year to go all out and spoil her. I actually made some reservations and we went to the 12 Apostles hotels restuarant, Azure. I even dressed up abit for the occasion. This meal was really hard on the pocket but she deserves it. The meal was good as I had some duck while she had a nice steak. After the meal they brought her a little chocolate birtday cake with a candle which I must admit was kinda cool. 'Happy Birthday' was written in chocolate on the plate, but the candle kinda went dead when they put it down. It was during this time that I gave her her last little present. This was a simple wedding band as she lost hers some time ago and it was never replaced.
Anyway even if I have to admit it myself I really enjoyed last nite and though the day was very hard on the pocket I think my wife enjoyed it.
Anyway
Happy Birthday A, I love you and you really deserve the best....
I really tried to make it special for her this year and I really hope she appreciates it.
I started off the birthday just before 12am by giving her some earrings that I got her. I want the get her something special and went to the jewelry store. No this is not a copout since she likes her studs and my son for some reason keeps on trowing them away. I decided to mark her birtday with some tanzanite studs. I must say it REALLY looks good on her. (Actually now thinking she realy makes a lot of stuff look good).
During the day I wanted to get her some flowers and although this is not an excuse, the day just swallowed me in and I forgot to get her some until it was too late.
Anyway come the nite. I really wanted and decided this year to go all out and spoil her. I actually made some reservations and we went to the 12 Apostles hotels restuarant, Azure. I even dressed up abit for the occasion. This meal was really hard on the pocket but she deserves it. The meal was good as I had some duck while she had a nice steak. After the meal they brought her a little chocolate birtday cake with a candle which I must admit was kinda cool. 'Happy Birthday' was written in chocolate on the plate, but the candle kinda went dead when they put it down. It was during this time that I gave her her last little present. This was a simple wedding band as she lost hers some time ago and it was never replaced.
Anyway even if I have to admit it myself I really enjoyed last nite and though the day was very hard on the pocket I think my wife enjoyed it.
Anyway
Happy Birthday A, I love you and you really deserve the best....
Sunday, November 9, 2008
My Life
So OK it is true. I havent been bloggin for a couple of months and too be honest it has been a hectic couple of months.
I can now start to understan the need for blogging. I think it is a need for reflection so that after a couple of months you can read back and go did i really do that then.
Anyway so what has been happening:
1. started another job
2. trying to improve relationships.
3. and just living day by day.
These couple of months especailly the last couple of weeks has been a bit rough on me. It made me start thinking of how one always takes your closest relationships for granted. These are the people that are the most important in your life but sometimes a word not said is not right. (just hold onto that)
On the other side just started a new job a couple of months ago. Really enjoy working at my new company. Really giving me a space to explore what I like doing. and that is being a dev but alos being a sysadmin.
Anyway till again
I can now start to understan the need for blogging. I think it is a need for reflection so that after a couple of months you can read back and go did i really do that then.
Anyway so what has been happening:
1. started another job
2. trying to improve relationships.
3. and just living day by day.
These couple of months especailly the last couple of weeks has been a bit rough on me. It made me start thinking of how one always takes your closest relationships for granted. These are the people that are the most important in your life but sometimes a word not said is not right. (just hold onto that)
On the other side just started a new job a couple of months ago. Really enjoy working at my new company. Really giving me a space to explore what I like doing. and that is being a dev but alos being a sysadmin.
Anyway till again
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